How do I want to be remembered?

I know this is a little crazy to be posting stuff about death, but forever this has always been something that has been in the back of my mind. Yesterday while talking to a friend, the thought came back. She asked if I remembered her cousin married to so and so. I told her yes, I remembered them. She explained that the guy passed away right before Thanksgiving. Then she talked briefly about the funeral services. She talked about how the wife of the deceased "changed" and it seemed to her that she lives a bitter life, angry at where she is now in her life. She also mentioned how one guy that was asked to speak at the service spoke and spoke about the negative things the deceased went through or did.

That brings me to the following thought: how do I want to live my life? How do I want to be remembered. Do I want to be remembered as the "drama queen" or someone who was never happy with life? I always wonder what would be said at my service. Will they say that I lived a good life, was I charitable, was I good wife and mother? I know I shouldn't worry about things like this, but at the same time, I think it helps me to strive to be better, strive to help thers and strive to be a better wife and better mother.

Along with that, another thought that has always stuck in the back of my head is, if something were to happen to someone I know (such as death or an accident), what were my last thoughts or words? Awhile ago, I heard a true story about Joan Rivers - she talked about how she was in an argument with her spouse and little did she know, he would later that day get in an accident that took his life. She explained how still to this day, she lives with guilt. Guilt knowing that the last words she spoke were angry words. I think that's what reminds me to be forgiving. How would I feel? I've seen it first hand with others and hope that I can remember to be a kind and forgiving person.

As the year comes to a close and in a few weeks, a new year is here, one of my goals for the new year is to have a good attitude about life - regardless of the trials that may get thrown my way. No procrastination - something I've been doing the past couple of years. To live a life with no regrets, to work harder on the goals I have set, to be an example and most all to be the best wife and mother.