Feeling better!

My apologies on a couple of the previous posts. I'm only human. I have my days where I break down, lose sight of what really matters and let my emotions get the best of me. If that's a taste of what it feels like to be depressed, thank goodness I don't suffer from depression. That was no fun at all.

Life is definitely a roller coaster ride. You have the great moments and then the not so great moments. For me, for that little bit, it was as if everything was falling apart -- well not completely, but a little. Timing wise, it really sucked -- it started with Zumba...yes, believe it or not Zumba. As you know I teach at the church gym. It's a challenge because you've got to screen your music carefully. A long with that, be cautious with some of the moves. As much as we try and do that, occasionally we instructors fall short. On one particular day, we were in a rush and lo and behold, we had the unedited version of the song. Yeah, not good. Not sure if it was this particular day or another, but someone from the class went as far as complained to the Stake President that we were using inappropriate music.

Second - family life. It's been a little high stress at home with keeping up with the housework, twins football, teenagers and all that fun stuff that it starts to take a toll. Add into that emotions and what not leading to anger, etc. Losing control, saying things one shouldn't say, doing things one shouldn't do, etc. It equals a big mess.

Work. Enough said. Lol. I've been at my job since my senior year in high school. Yes a very long time - 20 years next year to be exact. I think because I've been at my job for a long time, I tend to get into the laxed mode. Maybe a little too much. In the past, I've been pulled aside and told...you need to do this, you can't do this...blah, blah, blah. Well, earlier this week, I was written up. I couldn't believe it. But then again, I could. I wasn't surprised. I figured it would happen eventually.

Basically right there is a brief summary of what transpired within the past week or two. I've always tried to keep an upbeat attitude, but it got the best of me. All in all, experiences (bad or good) happen for a reason. If we don't walk away learning something, then it was a total waste of time.

What I've learned from each experience? With Zumba, whether the incident happened by accident or not, it's a great reminder of church standards. I admit, sometimes I get caught up and forget and to be honest, I intentionally forget. Was that a confession? Lol.

Family life. I've got to control my emotions. I have an issue with anger management. Yes, admitting to it. I can be a nice person and then when I've reached my limit, all hell breaks loose and I am the not so nice person. Total night and day. It's something I need to get control over. After browsing the internet, reading blogs, looking at diy projects, I have decided that I need to makeover my house. I spend so much time away that it looks like it. I have pictures and mirrors sitting on the floor still. When visitors come over, some ask if we just moved in or if we are moving because stuff is sitting on the floor. I guess that's a hint right? Sometimes I wish I had a lower house payment. Lower house payment equals smaller house. Rather than complaining and wishing for something else -- I should be grateful for what I have. It's a decent size home and the value is much more than what we owe.

Work. I'm trying to have a better attitude. Trying hard to get to work on time. Be more productive and just do my best. Unfortunately I do need my job. So if I want to keep it, I better step it up.

Going through some of these experiences has been a challenge, but it's been a great learning experience. I am reminded of what should matter and it is my hope that I can do better and be better.

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